You can run across a day like I've had today. It's gettin' ugly. The HR dept. is playing stupid and want me to see a state doctor. Again. All the doctors I've seen and it's been a fair number, have all said the same thing. So funny this place can move me whenever they want (and overnight for that matter) but I'm not supposed to ever make a noise. Until then, they strongly advise I either take a leave (yeah, great, but unpaid) or take a demotion. Or deal with it. Which is why I heart xanax. Really. Would I go thru all this if I just wanted to take the easy way out? I'm willin' to work - I got six years till retirement....
Oh, WAIT! The best part of that is the conversation was on a conference call - him with another HR person and me who had to actually go in my boss's office and tell her I needed to close the door. Like for real.. they couldn't spare half an hour for a face to face???? See what I mean?!
Hey, I've never had a bad eval, haven't done anything wrong except almost died because of the surgery I got there, and I don't deserve this crap. It's the politics.. the background.. the different administrations...even the HR guy had to admit he doesn't know the whole deal and told me "that was before I was in this job"... and I thought to myself and took every ounce of willpower to not say outloud "well ya better get schooled quick boy because I'm about to call in some legal that's gonna kick your ass".
I should have said it.
Anyway.. they know I know a LOT. I've been there a long time and know how the games are played. I've seen it and heard it first hand. But I've learned how you have to play too. I don't wanna, but if I have to I will. And as a last resort maybe I'll have to put it on one of those "your news" stories our local station has hehehe.
But for now.. what does this say about me? I stopped at the store tonight, got a bottle of rice wine vinegar, a bottle of sesame oil, a LARGE bottle of 200 mg motrin and a LARGE box of beer. Amen for good intentions but somehow I don't think I'm in the mood to cook chinese noodles tonight.