Monday, January 18, 2010

Well... so much for workin' the holiday.

I got up extra early and turned up the heat so I could take a nice long shower. And I waited for it to warm up. But it never did. Apparently my furnace has issues.... and that forces ME to have issues. I hate this shit. And I imagine my boss hates me pretty much too cuz there was no way I could work and worry about this crap too. This "man" stuff that totally freaks me out and makes me crazy because I don't know what to do! And there's no handy-dandy go to guy around here that I can find... there just isn't. That's how it rolls when you're a lady livin' alone in the country... and it makes ya so vulnerable I can hardly stand it. I hate to have to beg people for help.. even if I could find someone.

I hate this crap. Makes me cry like a baby I get so nervous... and wearing a hat and jacket and two pairs of socks around the house trying to do dishes and laundry quick in case the heat doesn't get fixed soon enough and the water freezes is the only panic action I can think of.

And who really gives a shit. I know. I'm an emotionally broken (more like destroyed), half crazy woman with insane anxiety issues.. I know that too. And I also know there is no one to take care of me or care about me anymore in this whole wide world and it totally freakin' SUCKS. Do you hear me karma world???!!!! It SUCKS!

1 comment:

Sheepish Annie said...

I hear you. I sometimes think it would be nice to have somone deal with all that stuff. It does suck to have to do it all. It's a hard thing to explain to other people, though. They mean well, but they don't really "get" what it's like to be responsible for every, single thing.

You can do it, though. I know you can. ::hugs::